diary entry 2/3/26
" been consistently nauseous for about 3-5 days. stress? on the verge of mental vomit... update: just vomitted "

diary entry 1/28/26
" i get so nervous by the idea of talking to new peopple. i really want to make friends here, or at least have more moots, but it's so nerve wracking. i am pretty comfortable with having a few select people to talk to every day, just don't want my days to feel that empty.

gf gifted me the bully game ( i screamed ) so i plan to play that after work and then i gotta post the gallery page soon.... that is, if i even draw. my ocs have been holding dust for over a week. "

diary entry 1/26/26
" i already have the essentials to my lolita wardrobe, even a moi-meme-moitie jsk. the only obstacle thats left is to overcome wearing it out in public. the thing is, i live in an area full of obnoxious boys that laugh to each other whenever they see an alternative person wearing more than black jackets and jeans. so scary.... (-_- " ) i wish to have the confidence. im going to japan soon, maybe there i can try. whenever i look in the mirror while in my coords, i feel euphoric, cute even. an other being.

making pages for my site soon, still need to collect photos. "

diary entry 1/25/26
" life feels like that img of squidward looking out the window whenever neocities wont let me comment.

and nothings' been happening recently. i'm getting into games though! one being bully: scholarship edition from 2008. i should start setting up a page of my favorite games and books.

bully is outdated but it manages to be one of the funniest game ive gotten into. a rebelious teen named jimmy hopkins goes in to some boarding school, and he meets some pretty wild characters. i cant say much though, as i only just finished watching chapter 1 of like a nine hour playthrough (-_- ") but one thing i do want to say is jimmy reminds me a lot about holden caulfield from catcher in the rye. jimmy hopkins son or holden caulfeild daughter...

DAMN IT i need to start drawing, my ocs are being neglected. also according to this test, i align with freud. that's a nightmare. "

diary entry 1/21/26 " html pisses me off. sorry for anyone who stumbles upon this, there's nothing interesting here for now. i do want to say, i'm proud of myself for putting in the effort, esepecially because i've been procrastinating for months. and now i did it!

anyway, aside from that. shoutout to my gf jackie. shoutout to my bestfriend and one of my inspos, shoutout to other people such as my irls and onlines. i promise you, while you're not listed here, just know i think of you... i'm way too tired of this website, energy is gone. "